my WonDeRfUl God

im reali amazed at e wae god works!!
im supposed 2 do translation in e service tml... translate frm english 2 mandarin cos we haf an ang moh speaker. n i had a dream last nite abt it! it wasnt a gd dream in a wae... cos i dreamt tt e speaker came n spoke but i din translate. i was wondering y, in e dream, n realised moi reverend wasnt arnd (he was e one who asked mi 2 translate, in real life). so i thot maebe no one noes im supposed 2 translate n so dey din ask mi up... den as i was sitting dere, i cant recall if i was praying den i heard tis voice, "u cant translate because u want 2 translate for urself n not 4 god.." it means e glory 4 moiself n not 4 god.
i cant rem if tis dream was rite b4 i woke up or it was some time later b4 i woke up. but i cld stil vividly rem e dream. n i cant rem dreams at all one... even at e split second b4 i woke up i still rem it, once i wake up, it's like *ding* i cant rem anyth anymore. but tis time round i could rem it vividly. im sure god's trying 2 tell mi sth. tis is not juz ANY dream..
tho psychologicalli.. frm wat i learnt, dreams cld b things in ur unconscious mind, tis cld mean tt im troubled abt having 2 translate... but i dun tink i wld rem e dream as vividly, no matter how troubled by it i m. n like wat delia said, it's abt sth so specific. n it's 2 nites b4 e translation, not 1 nite which i tink i wldnt haf time 2 tink thru it cos e following morn i wld hafta translate liao. now tt i act haf time 2 tink over it... i dun tink it's by mere coincidence.
n wat's more, when i recalled e past wk's event.. i was even amazed...
last thurs, during cg, mi, shawna n eunice we prayed 4 god 2 show us tt his word is living word. in a wae, 2 experience him. n on e past tues, which was e onli time i did moi quiet time tis wk.. i prayed oso 4 him 2 show mi his works, let mi noe he's a living god. n den i haf such a dream. he answers prayers lyk wonder!!
i was still tinking abt how i can act share abt god's works in moi life if someone asks.. n he worked alreadi. not once but more...
i had a social psych test on mon.. which i was v unprepared 4, cos i havent been doing moi reading at all since e term started... so i cldnt finish studying. i was reali scared... dun wanna pull down moi cap... n i kept praying... god help mi.. dere's nth i can do liao.
n e test was v much on e front chapters, those which i read!! n those qns on topics i din read, i rem tis 2 qns which were on e same thing, i cld infer one of e ans frm e other qns!! how cld tt b possible rite?? but it happened! tho i havent gotten it back but i'd reali expected a worse paper.. i prayed 4 forgiveness n a humble heart. for god 2 crush every little bit of e pride i still haf in mi. so tt when i translate, im doing it 2 glorify his name n not mine.

yeah~
but im worried tt i wld b complacent which i m... cos i haf another test coming up on mon n similarli, havent done e readings... i gotta make moiself study harder.. but been restless.. muz reali pray 4 god's discipline.
n m still praying 4 god's help in moi realisation of self-worth in him n not in frens or anybody else... i've made frens n haf nice frenships but human's still human.. bound 2 err n disappoint... it's onli in god tt we haf a perfect fren. n since he loves mi so much... how can i not love him back? but i havent been doing tt. lord, pls help mi... 2 place moi value in u n not in anyone else, 2 live 4 u n not anyone else.
thank u Lord, i love u (",)